Ha was I kidding myself....

There for a moment, today gas been crap u was trying to dicide what I was going to do at college get myself sorted for me college won't answer phone so I went down there and no one was in. Appointment on Thursday. I popped into to the creshe it's small kiara wanted to play, good sign. The women said um better getting a fulltime course as childcare wont cover me after january if i don't. Sam also hasn't been at work for a week. Discided he's looking for a new one but won't go work untill he has another which has fucked me off. Means less fucking money. Kiaras not well and won't let Me get her to sleep wants daddy oh how loved I feel. Every course I try set mymind to some fucker says something about it costing to much or some stupid reason, so now I can't be arsed cause I'm going to end up how I never wanted. My mum, fat looking after kids and a dole sucking failuar. Oh and Sam doesn't wanna be loving otnhave sex so that's another thing to add to my I hate life cause nothig is going my way list, I give up on life don't see the point anymore. Aint getting to the gym anymore so no me time I can't seem to see anything happy now just going to cry