Depends what you mean by a big boobies
Wednesday, 31 March 2010
if your life, when have you been the happiest? most content?
when I heard kiara cry when she came out, plus i was high
quite night in with a few friends or party hard till you pass out!!
tricky, i wouldnt wanna pass out, but i enjoy quiet night in wi movies and friends and tickelingh them
most embarressing thing you have EVER done??
had my vigina on show to everyone one whilst giving birth lol well attemptinng to
if you could change anything in your life what would it bee?
I wouldn't of brought that chicken yesterday, and me sam and Kiara wouldnt be throwing up with food poisoning.
what do you like to do when your bored?
Watch a movie, bug Sam, bug people on msn&fb, bug sam for something. :P
Monday, 29 March 2010
are you happy?
Right now that question can not be answered, due to my huge mind fuck :(. I Keep thinking I am but things keep going over in my head that make me unhappy
Wednesday, 24 March 2010
is life what you planned as a child??
As my childhood I never planned it and all my plans seem to fail minus having kiara I just take everything as it comes
Monday, 22 March 2010
Sunday, 21 March 2010
formspring.me
Ask me anything http://formspring.me/rockchickmj I'm Bored Please Feel Free To Entertain
You had a baby and you're still a hot chick! What's your secret??
Sex, no erm..... wait it might be.... No I don't know to be honest,
Wednesday, 17 March 2010
Saturday, 13 March 2010
Wrong Decision ......
So me & Sam have decided to give it another go, we both explained what we both want to change and to see how it goes until the 21st, two days later I've got the sentence 'Do you still want this' going through my head. So I'm thinking to my self Do i actually still want this, now because I'm an honest person when it comes to relationships, I told Sam what was going through my head, he said "who has put that in your head" or was it "whose been saying stuff". Well it was no one so I said that. So the last few days I've been trying to think if I want this or not, and Its like I might want it a bit, for Kiara and him, but things don't seem to feel right anymore, which upsets me inside to know that I don't want something like this. But I'm scared if I end this will my daughter lose her father and will I lose a Friend, Because Sam means a lot to me. there is love there its just like he said its the 'In Love' that's not there, as much as I want it to be. I have this horrible gut feelign of hurting him, that I really don't want to do, but I know I need to be happy. I seem to be picking argument with him to, which I think is a sign of me not wanting this. So now all I've got to do Is tell him.....
.... But how......
.... But how......
Monday, 8 March 2010
So Confused...
Well.... over a week ago Me & Sam broke up, it was a Mutual agreement, We've both be drifting apart for a while now, I want love and attention, to be able to hug and kiss someone with out having to ask them ans get told no. So over this week it has been so confusing. we done it a few times but he said he's not 'in love' with me anymore but loves me, But I think he loves me only because I'm the mother of his child, but I don't want that to be the reason he loves me.
There is so much I want from a relationship, but I don't seem to have it anymore.
so now it seems its me not wanting this anymore, my mind is all over the place so I went to my best friend Tian for advice and she gave me my own advice that I had given her a while ago. Lol. It was to write a list of the Pros & Cons of being with Sam.
and there's more Cons, the was what three Pros and like nearly ten Cons. Now I'm confused what to do even though when I was talking to my best friend it just sound like I didn't want this any more. Then this morning Sam comes onto our bed (he's not sleeping in the same bedroom as me). and then Kiara woke up so I put her in between us and that was like a moment. mummy daddy and baby, made me Feel like I wanted it but Only for Kiara I liked the Feeling but, now it doesn't feel so right. So I'm going to have to tell him at some point because now I don't feel Like I'm 'in love' with him.
I feel I'm only wanting this relationship for Kiara. I don't smile at him the way I used to. I don't have that loving feeling. I think I'm just scared of being alone.
There is so much I want from a relationship, but I don't seem to have it anymore.
so now it seems its me not wanting this anymore, my mind is all over the place so I went to my best friend Tian for advice and she gave me my own advice that I had given her a while ago. Lol. It was to write a list of the Pros & Cons of being with Sam.
and there's more Cons, the was what three Pros and like nearly ten Cons. Now I'm confused what to do even though when I was talking to my best friend it just sound like I didn't want this any more. Then this morning Sam comes onto our bed (he's not sleeping in the same bedroom as me). and then Kiara woke up so I put her in between us and that was like a moment. mummy daddy and baby, made me Feel like I wanted it but Only for Kiara I liked the Feeling but, now it doesn't feel so right. So I'm going to have to tell him at some point because now I don't feel Like I'm 'in love' with him.
I feel I'm only wanting this relationship for Kiara. I don't smile at him the way I used to. I don't have that loving feeling. I think I'm just scared of being alone.