Last 4 days things seem to be a bit up and down, I'm trying my best to be a better person, trying to make up those long lost broken friendship. also I've been having dreams & Messages from the dead... wonderful. But once I express things or try to fix these things It gets worse or I'm suddenly the bad person, I've been told that the things I've been told are not messages there guilt. So much for family are always there to support me. I've been invited to go to Bonfire night which is a family tredition to have at my Nana & Granddads, but after me telling them a message from what I've been told to say which buuged the crap out of me that I finally blurted out after Lewis my little 2 yearold cousin saying Nana (shes past away last year) I finally said something, which I regreated as the words came out my mouth. So I dont feel comfortable going back there now as I feel I've upset everyone, not meaning to but when You've got something badgering you on like that in your head you just explode with it. Some people may not believe in all this phycic stuff, I'm a bit scaptical ( a tiny bit) but when I get dreams that people are going to die and they do a month - 3 months later, its a bit wierd and when I have other spirits telling me things, seeing and experiencing things moving etc around me, or other wise I'm just nutts and need to go to a home.
On the upside of all of this... KIARA Is 1 On 23rd! It has flew and I can't believe how fast this year has gone, Kiara is talking quiet a bit picking up words or points and saying what is it, So I'll tell her and she's attempts to or repeats it.
I've brought her birthday presents and she also has Christmas presents too, I wrapped all these up last night.
I think I'm more excited then she is about her birthday then she is, She's having two partys, one on her birthday, plannig on having Tina & Harley, Michaela, Alice & Zak (maybe a bethany and if stuart comes) then also Sandra & Ethan.
Wednesday after Kiara's birthday we having Amy&Lily Frankie&Caitlyn (and i was hoping Sarah & Kacie, but she said she is at college now, although it is the hoildays).
Busy Busy busy, I want it to hurry up so i can get things ready the night before. Plus I cant wait to get my flooring down. cause I hate the state of the carpet.
