Downer....

Do you ever get the feeling that your not worth looking at anymore....
I do.
Not a nice feeling, not when I try and try for someone and just feel like it was a waste of my time and effort. Just makes me bored of my own life and want to find something else, something thats going to keep me smiling and add that extra spice.
Do you ever find yourself fantasizing with someone else? someone perhaps you shouldn't be?
Do I.
Its all these little things that make me feel so down because maybe, just maybe, what I have I no longer want.
And to add on to the downer, your ill, over eating/under eating, but still moaning you need to lose weight.
I have a gym membership now, its just trying to find the time to go and the baby sitter to look after madam.
She's not well either. So I'm looking after myself and her, Then getting the other half moaning because she's not quiet enough. Its like FFS as if I haven't got enough with her moaning, a headache and compleately tired, that I have to listen to you moaning too.
And he wonders why I'm always in a  mood.